My thoughts…
June 5, 2005 by ez12k
last weekend holiday reminds me alot of important things in my life. example will be how my buddies will be missed. i’ve come to realised tat ppl r growing up, things r changing, surroundings r evolving n i m trying to adapt to all of it. weekend spending with my buddies is more treasured despite our activities is mostly CC games!!! got a few moments we get to chat which is surely a rare occasion in the coming future as everyone have diff time free. just praying hard tat we will keep in touch always no matter where we are…
as always, alot of ppl r curious bout my love life which is always a doubt to everyone. honestly i know what i want but unfortunately my thoughts r not recognized by my frens around, some even think tat i m too cold-blooded in such situations… except 1 gal. so far only she has the same thoughts as i have despite she’s not my close fren (yet). but tat’s not the main point, besides she’s NA alr… 
but more important is i’m happy with what i m doing n i never wish to encounter any frens pressure on such issues. i might failed alot of times in these cases but everytime i m a better person to stand up again. for me, it takes impression, chemistry n time for me to find the right gal….
family is important for me, it’s just as same lvl as my frens n my companion (if i have 1). it’s a gift to have either 1 of it n i glad i alr have 2. so life is happy enough for me, will be better if all can be found together inside my heart.
look for the very current present situation is my goal, future is something i can plan but not me to decide it yet… despite being misunderstood for childishness, i m ok to accept it (hey, i’m the youngest in my family after all) n there is no harm to do what u want now at this time. being youth, time is our assets n we r to use it wisely as we can never go back the time again.
maybe u think i m kind of getting emotional here but frankly, i m just some of my frens will describe me, cool n cold… really is, i just voiced up something i crossed in my mind without any hard feelings so tat somebody (i hope) might take the effort to read such a crap here n learn something bout me.
but guess it’s too much for now so i wanna pause 1st. crap again next time….
Seems like u interested quite to the NA gal wo? She appear few time in your writing alrd. There is always possibility in an NA situation lah. The problem is just how long u can wait for the possibility happen. Anyway, chemistry effect will not happen if u din put enuf bahan kimia mah. Everything are follow the principal of Touka Koukan(Equivalent Trade,
from fullmetal alchemist). Anyway, u can keep crap’ing lah. I’m ur fix reader alrd. 